| Looks like this is the end of this chapter |
[21 Aug 2004|04:24pm] |
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Converge "Homewecker" |
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This journal is about two and half years old. I have so many great memories and I'm glad I put them into a place that I can remember for many more years to come.
I have come to a decision that it is time to retire this journal. It has reflected mostly on the high school chapter of my life. Now that I'm on a new chapter, it seems overwhelming and unorganized if I continued in this specific journal.
The new journal - ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) madeforburning
I'm also going to be editing my friends list. If you still read my journal, please add me. Honestly, I don't know who still reads my journal. Please don't be offended if I don't add you right away. I'm also deciding if I want to make my new journal friends only. I may also be coming up with a new screen name on AIM.
Farewell my friends.
Onto the next chapter...
- - - carolyn - - -
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(1 more heart attack | BOO!!)
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| This spring I think that I should go |
[19 Aug 2004|08:34am] |
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The big day has finally come.
All of my shit is packed and I'm ready to leave.
I'm excited as fuck.
I'm scared as fuck.
My next update will be from the west side of Michigan.
I'll miss some of you, and others will probably not even know that I'm gone...
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(1 more heart attack | BOO!!)
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| There's uh peacock dancing on your shoulder |
[17 Aug 2004|12:05pm] |
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mood |
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 groggy |
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music |
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The Blood Brothers "Siamese Gun" |
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I just realized that I haven't showered in three days. Haha, what the hell is wrong with me? I don't want to be a stinky punk...
Two more days remain until I move over to Grand Rapids. I'm still feeling quite excited about it, but at the same I'm scared as hell. It does not even feel like I'm moving away. I just feel like it's a vacation and I'll be back home in a week or so. I don't know when it's all going to hit me.
However, I am responsible for this decision. College is going to open many doors of oppurtunities and an expirence of beginning to live on my own. I'm going to leave with an open mind and hopes of making new friends over there. Plus, I'm hoping to find some parties. Drinking buddies would be wonderful!
I'm going to miss many little things about here, my home. Such as sleeping in my own bed and having my own bedroom and bathroom.
Well, I must begin to pack my belongings and finish shopping.
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(1 more heart attack | BOO!!)
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| Come and fill your lungs |
[05 Aug 2004|02:06pm] |
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mood |
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 rushed |
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curlupanddie |
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I decided that while I'm away at school, I should start reading more books. My knowledge for books is quite rusty. Here are some of my favorite books:
The Virgin Suicides by Jeffery Eugenides
A Child Called "It" by Dave Pelzer
At Last There is Nothing Left to Say by Matthew Good
I've been wanting to read "The Lovely Bones", but I can only find hard copies which run for around $20, and my library does not have a copy.
Any suggestions for some good books, or places/sites where I can find about some titles?
In the meantime if you want something to read, I will share one of Matthew Good Manifestos from his book. This story is the anti-fairytale. ( Read on... )
If anyone actually reads it, please comment and let me know what you think.
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(3 more heart attacks | BOO!!)
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| Down some pills. Up some hope. |
[28 Jul 2004|03:33am] |
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mood |
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 working |
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music |
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Radiohead "Prove Yourself" |
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Finally, working as a waitress is starting to add up, slowly. I finally had sales over $500 last night, and I ended up walking out with almost $100. Yes, from tips.
However, being a waiter/waiteress is a very stressful job, just as any other customer service job. This job is the only job that you must rely soley on other people to pay you for your work. You cannot live on a $2.65 hourly wage.
I do enjoy getting money right into my wallet.
It will help me out for a few shows coming up this week.
As for the party, I believe I have a place set-up.
More details will unfold as they become available.
23 days left until the big move
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(2 more heart attacks | BOO!!)
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| and the reasons beat the shit out of me |
[24 Jul 2004|01:26am] |
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mood |
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listless & chilly |
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music |
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The Dears |
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So many thoughts I want to share,
but I don't know how to express them all.
The weather is lovely right now.
Who would expect temperatures in the lower 50's in July?
I should throw on a hoodie, sit outside, and ponder about nothing.
27 days until the big move
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(3 more heart attacks | BOO!!)
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| Obvisiously. |
[19 Jul 2004|01:16am] |
Dear Readers,
The girl who is writing this is entry is most likey destined to become a future alcoholic drunk. (edited)
You'll remember when the time comes.
Love,
Carolyn
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(12 more heart attacks | BOO!!)
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| Fuck 'em all |
[18 Jul 2004|10:59pm] |
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mood |
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 pissed off |
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I had another table tonight that decided not to leave me a tip.
It was a $40 bill.
I asked them if there was something wrong with my service, and they left without giving me a reason.
I feel so worthless.
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(15 more heart attacks | BOO!!)
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| Wipe your asses with glory |
[17 Jul 2004|03:56pm] |
Would anyone be interested in going to see this show?:
Planes Mistaken for Stars
w/ Decahedron, Bear vs. Shark, & Spit for Athena
@ Mac's Bar
2700 East Michigan Ave
Lansing, MI
Wednesday, July 27th
9 pm 18+
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(BOO!!)
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| Homie don't play dat! |
[13 Jul 2004|05:20am] |
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mood |
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 annoyed |
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My mother thinks it is a bad idea for me to wear a jean skirt to Cedar Point today.
I think it's a bad idea for my mother to give me advice.
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(3 more heart attacks | BOO!!)
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| Save a horse, ride a cowboy. |
[08 Jul 2004|01:24pm] |
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mood |
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sore |
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music |
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The Blood Brothers "Meet Me at the Water Front" |
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One of my goals this summer was to clean out my car, and sure enough I accomplished that yesterday. It took about two hours but I vacummed and steam cleaned the inside, along with wiping all the dust inside too, and of course washing the outside. When I was finished, I told my mom that I was sweating like a whore in church and she got mad that I said that.
I enjoy going to the park after dark. I've been doing that almost everyday this week.
I have more to say, but this is all for now.
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(2 more heart attacks | BOO!!)
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| Where do hearts go? Where the crows go! |
[06 Jul 2004|02:09pm] |
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All I have to say about seeing the Blood Brothers for the first time last night was that they were packed with tons of energy and they put on an amazing set.
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(BOO!!)
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| While those fireworks were exploding... |
[05 Jul 2004|02:19am] |
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mood |
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sleepy |
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music |
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The Mars Volta "Drunkship of Lanterns" |
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I was finally able to see Fahrenheit 9/11 with Ben last night. Michael Moore makes me think too much. There is just too many issues to cover about the war, but at least he discussed some of those issues. He made George W. Bush into a moron, of course. Personally, I like Bowling for Columbine much better.
After the show, we came home and watched everyone else waste hundreds to thousands of dollars on fireworks. Gertie came over and we listened to Pablo Fransisco. He is quite a funny man. "Fuckin' house! Now you see it, now you fuckin' don't!!" We then went over to Chris's house and visited with Stacy and Carol. They left to get food so Gertie and I drove up to Huron Park. I brought a box of fire crackers and we were lighting a few of them off on this big hill. They sounded so interesting because they would pop first, then you would hear the explotion echoing in the background. Well on the way up the hill we saw a fire inside a trash can inside the park, so Gertie came up with the brillant plan to throw the rest of the fire crackers into this burning, metal trach can. There must have been about fifty of those things I dropped into there, and it just sounded like super loud popcorn. It was great.
We sat at the park and talked for a little bit. Made a 7-11 run, drove around Gratiot, came back to my house and I called it a night. I love hanging out with Gertie.
I get to see the Blood Brothers later tonight. I am quite excited. I am going to attempt to make myself "hott".
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(2 more heart attacks | BOO!!)
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| Wake up kids! We got the dreamer's disease. |
[01 Jul 2004|02:30am] |
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mood |
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tired |
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music |
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Poison the Well "Not Within Arms Length" |
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< lj-bitchin' >
Last night was my first shitty night of waitressing. I honestly did not mind it until after today. I had a couple bitchy customers, campers, and everyone inbetween. I'll get used to it, I guess, but I'm glad I'm not doing it again until Tuesday night.
However, there were a few things that made me happy tonight:
1. Gertie, Jaymie, and Speagle coming up to see me. (Sorry I didn't get to talk to to you guys too much)
2. Italian wedding soup. I ate two bowls of it at work, and I brought three cups home.
3. Kevin, espically since we got to work together.
4. Christine has returned to work from her two year leave.
5. Lindsay (my out-of-town-at-the-moment co-worker) sent me a text message of our favorite song together. I did want to scream at the top of my lungs, haha.
6. My boss Patrick purchased a $400 firework and lit it off at the parking lot next door at 10 o'clock last night. That thing sounded like fucking gun shots. It was proudly amused watching that $400 burst into flames and sparkles in the sky.
and last but not least...
7. Finding out that Tara has been fired!! That girl was not only the biggest bimbo I have ever met, but also a lazy asshole and a giant slut. I hope I never see her ever again.
< /lj-bitchin' >
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(1 more heart attack | BOO!!)
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